Enough is Enough

Despite the title of this post, I know I cannot make any guarantees, but I have vowed to make a more conscious effort not to let the frustrations of this "body transformation" get me down.  Enough is enough.  I am tired of feeling bad about myself when I am working so hard to make so many positive changes in my life.  I am working my butt off, and the results will come. As my mom said this morning, even if you don't see the results on the scale, your body is still changing. 

Change is hard.  Regardless of the reason behind it, or the over-all goal.  But after having re-read what I posted yesterday, I felt bad.  Not bad in a "pity party" kind of way, but I was angry at myself for being so hard on myself. 

I want to start making a list, maybe once a day, maybe once a week, but a list of all the things I'm doing right.  My accomplishments.  I frequently make "to-do" lists, and even though checking off the items  symbolizes accomplishing the task, I think I can do more.

Especially on the days when it is hard to look in the mirror at the body I am fighting to change, it would be nice to know that in spite of it all, I'm still doing the right things.

Just something to think about this week...
Stay motivated, stay fabulous
xoxo

The Weight of the World

I've had a rough week.

Despite my efforts and waking up at 6am every day to ensure that I got in a good work out, my weight hasn't changed.  I knew I would eventually plateau, but i didn't think it would be so soon...I am still crossing my fingers in hopes that it was just a fluke, and that this week will go better, but I'll have to wait and see.

What was worse, my parents surprised my sister and I with an AMAZING spring break excursion that requires some new clothing, and when I went shopping today to try and find some things, it was a total bust.  Nothing fits right. It is unbelievably discouraging, especially after how hard I have been working.  I'm far from giving up, but I am certainly lacking confidence, and I don't like it.

Fortunately, my mom is coming to see me next weekend and she will be my personal cheer leader, and help me ward off some of the disappointment.

Now, off to bed so I can continue my morning workouts without a hitch.

Despite the frustration, stay fabulous
xoxo

Busy, Busy, Busy

After a very trying week, I am anxiously awaiting the weekend.  I get to go home for a couple days, back to my amazing support system and intend to come back to school rested and energized.

Although I have been keeping busy, I am still avidly working at my weight, and still trying my best to stay satisfied with the foods I'm eating.  I must say, as long as I put in time looking up recipes and use a few different ones a week, I'm pretty happy.  It isn't perfect, but I'm managing.

Due to the busy nature of the week, I don't have much time to devote to a post, but hopefully everything will be back under control soon.

Stay Fabulous,
xoxo

Time For School

The first week of school is off to a great start.  My classes seem great, professors seem nice, my new roommate is really cool (and gluten-free), and, for the moment, I'm not angry at food.

I did an hour long fitness class at the Rec Center last night, Athletic Yoga, and boy oh boy was it a work out.  I was seriously feeling the burn both during and after.  I took it easy today, just some light weight lifting. And a little birthday craft for Justin once class let out.   I do have a bit of a headache today, and my stomach hurts, but nothing a lot of water, some oils, and a good night's sleep can't fix.

Plans for a girl's night with some friends are in place for tomorrow night and then my first day of writing tutor training on Friday afternoon.  Almost done with week #1.

Until next time, stay fabulous
xoxo

On My Own

Some days are harder than others.
Some days I crave the foods I ate less than 4 weeks ago.
Some days the frustration makes me want to cry.
Some days I do cry.
Some days I get discouraged.
Some days I'm motivated.
Some days I cook.
Some days I eat left overs. (more often than not)
Some days all I want is ice cream.
Some days I'm angry at food.
Some days I'm angry at the scale.
Some days I'm angry at me.

But I'm on my own now...and I just have to take everything one day at a time.

 As always, stay fabulous
xoxo

New Semester, New Changes

Well, I'm back at school for my final semester of my undergraduate career.  My mom drove me back to school last night and took me for my first Wheat-free shopping extravaganza.  What I learned:  Wheat-free is expensive!

Now, I didn't purchase much that was specifically wheat-free, but the products I did buy where surprisingly pricey.  But I also stocked up on produce, protein, wheat-free pastas, quinoa, and plenty of cleaning products for my apartment.

All in all, it was a successful trip, and I am super grateful that my mom was there for support, but the real test will come when I have to shop by myself, and avoid all the treats I am currently missing.  *sigh*  Life goes on...and mine's going healthier.

Until next time, stay fabulous
xoxo

Back to the Grind

After a lovely escape to St. Paul, Minnesota for the weekend, it is back to the grind of school preparations, grad school anxiety, new supplements and new food.

All in all, I did pretty well with food this weekend.  My mom has been a terrific help...she has worked really hard to make sure that we are all getting nutritious and delicious home-cooked meals, while adhering to all of the necessary dietary restrictions (and trust me...they are plentiful).  My stomach was filled with gluten-free pizza and bagels, chicken salads, fresh and organic fruits and veggies, salmon, and some delicious chocolate & pomegranate desserts.

Although the desserts didn't quite follow the limited sugar diet restriction, I felt that a little treat wouldn't hurt, and I was right.  No headache :)

I've still been experiencing aches and pains though.  My neck and back feel stiff in the mornings, but that may be from sleeping on an air mattress the last few nights or long car rides, and my head goes through spurts of pain throughout the day, but nothing comes close to the pain I was in before all of this.  So that gives me hope.

I have an appointment with the Dr. K on Thursday right before I head back to school, so I'll get some last minute tid-bits from her, and then I'll have to start brain storming for my first Wheat-Free/Sugar-Free grocery trip.   I am very hesitant about that at the moment...not so much about finding things to eat, but about the time it will take to prepare certain things and still having an variety.  I don't want to get stuck in a rut where I feel like I can only eat salads and chicken, but it will be a test to see if I can really plan meals ahead of time and plan my days with time to prepare and cook the food I want at least for a few days in advance.

It will be a lot to think about over the next few days, but between now and then I have Dr. K to look forward to, an eye doctor appointment, a trip to Chicago, and a massage.  Now to take it all in stride.

Stay fabulous.
xoxo